the empty room

do you ever feels like something is fading but you do not know what it is?

do you ever feels like something is changing but you not sure about it?

do you ever feels like you life is crashing down but you not sure the reason why?

do you ever feels like something is making you sad and it hurts inside but you have to be strong and pretend like nothing happen?

do you ever feels like that?

i had to go through situation like this before during my secondary school. i was in boarding school during my form 4 and form 5. being alone without your friend to comfort and give you advises is very challenging. you have to go through your day and do everything by your own because you just do not have someone to put your trust and share your happiness and sadness to.

people says, losing friends is part of maturity process. yep, that is really true. i lost my best friend because of some misunderstanding. technically because we are far apart and rarely keep in touch each other. i tried to reach her or if we bump into each other, i try to say hi and ask about her life but her reaction is so disappointing me. she tried to keep distance and not talk to me even when i'm trying to. sometimes she gives me 'that peliks looks' when im trying to talk to her. hello? your best friend is trying to get rid you from their life. siapa tak sedih?

and now after 5 years pass, i saw her with her friends (of coz lah dia ada kawan lain kan haha). i'm happy because at least i know she is doing fine and happy. but a minute later, i just remember that we used to be a great best friend back then. 

since my mom is very supportive and understanding person, i used to tell her about every single things happens in my life, even the stupid things. and of cause about my friends too. even till now, i always ask my mom about her (best friend), what she doing, her studies and her families. (my mom is her mother's friend too hehe)

i do not put the blame on her. she may have a reasons of doing this. the reasons might be me. i may did wrong and not realize it. i'm just hoping that one day we will be a good friend again, dude.

and now, that feeling of losing people...

it is hurt. 

and i have to go through the same thing, again.

That Struggle Tho

assalammualaikum =)

hi there! been missing my old blogger account. had one before but then i delete it for some reasons. after a couple of years, i would like to do some sharing sessions with you guys hee. 

i was busy back then right after i delete my old blogger account. yeah since i decided to futher my studies to diploma level in Civil Engineering course. and yess its a really tough course dude! i struggle and put a lot of efforts especially during tests and project assignments for 3 years. kadang kadang ada 3 tests dalam masa satu hari. can you imagine that? huh

some people would just says 'eleh diploma je'. sorry guys, you dont know how struggle we are to achieve our target and pointer. honestly, it is not that easy. try put yourself in someone else's shoes.

when the things getting harder, take a deep breath and think rationally and have a little faith. it would not happen without a reason. Allah never put us in hard situation which we cannot handle. calm down yourself and start find the right ways to solve your problems. the best way to solve is always without membelakangkan ibu bapa dan of course HIM. may HE will always bless in whatever you do. 

my teacher once before told me ..

''kalau awak rasa hidup awak susah, sebenarnya ada orang lain yang lagi susah,

kalau awak rasa awak ni paling pandai, sebenarnya ada orang lain lagi pandai dari awak,

kalau awas rasa awak ni bernasib malang, sebenarnya ada orang lain yang lagi malang hidup melarat tidak tenang tidak tenteram,

jadi, kita kena sendiri merendah diri dan bersyukur atas apa yang kita ada. sentiasa ucap Alhamdulillah untuk apa yang kita ada''

well said Cikgu Nordin ;)